August 25, 2023 Can I be real for a moment? Sometimes I cry.I try really hard not to.I try to give my all to everything and everyone.And I often feel that I don't matter.I'm up at night tossing with anxiety and depression.Body dysmorphia.PTSD.When I get low, I get low.I cry myself to sleep when I've... Continue Reading →
7 Weeks Post-Op and my side is still trying to heal. My incision had been closed after the hematoma draining and I thought it was good to go until this week when my body rejected one of the stitches. I know my body has previously rejected stitches with numerous surgeries and 7 weeks post-op seems... Continue Reading →
⚠ Trigger Warning: this post discusses depression, anxiety, and suicide. ⚠ This past March I tried to kill myself and only four people truly knew about it. Philip. My sister. Her husband. And the police officer who visited the house -after my sister called them that night. That's it. It wasn't glamorous, it was ugly.... Continue Reading →
This week just happens to be my in-between week, with only one doctor's appointment scheduled and a few calls to the VA. There were no appointments for GI, no shots needed, no follow-ups for consultations, and no blood work that I had to take care of this week for my Crohn's disease and issues. This... Continue Reading →
Since last Friday's blog post, a few things have happened in my Crohn's and wellness journey, other than me shamelessly sharing selfies of myself in Cure for IBD shirts. (Remember, 100% of funds goes to research!) I have had multiple phone interviews with the VA, Humira Wednesday #2 came and went, and, Sunday was our... Continue Reading →
What has happened this week in my life? I almost didn't feel comfortable sharing all of the emotions and events of this week with the public, but I have kept it 'real' and honest with you up until this point, so why change that now? This week we're discussing hormones, both fertility and mental health related,... Continue Reading →
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